It’s been challenging to get back into my groove over the past few years. I’ve missed posting here the last two months. Part of it has been because I just acquired a new granddaughter. She came too early. Way too early. It’s been a struggle for her to make all the gains she would have made in the womb. But she’s doing great now and it will soon be time for her to leave the NICU and go home.
In her growing time while in the NICU I did lots of praying. Some cleaning. Reorganizing. Of course I still did some artwork. I always have to be creating, but during this time I shared creative time with my daughter who still lives with me, as well. This is her painting of her new niece, which she did from a shared picture on her phone. We still haven’t met the new arrival in person. COVID is still throwing a wrench in normal daily lifestyles. It will for a while I’m sure.
Lost in time.
I’m sure I’ll feel a little lost in time for a while yet. Not knowing when life will fall back into it’s old rhythms, or if it ever will, can leave one in that floating in time space, unsure of when a chance to touch down will come. The best thing to do is keep making efforts to move forward. That’s one thing you can be sure of, time will always move forward, might as well try to keep moving along with it.
During this foggy time I’m still giving my best effort to move forward with my goals. But the distractions of the world’s situations often have me hustling and attempting to not be too late for opportunities.
In my youth I was always carefree and seemed to live in the moment. It’s a happy existence, but not very realistic if you want to make worthwhile contributions in the time allotted here on Earth. That requires pushing yourself a little more. I feel I’m starting to gain my footing again, and am once again feeling joy leaning into the work. Success and a sense of accomplishment is just around the corner.
Right on time.
After all my worries of things happening too soon, or about my applying myself too late, I know when I’ve found my peace with the efforts I’ve made, and acceptance of the extent of my abilities, I will settle into the perfect space, and know that I am right on time.
For now I’m still occasionally dealing with noodles on the brain. But at least I’m smiling.